I visited a brothel (Inner monologue)

Me: Yes, I've done it. A 25-year-old man, with a clear head *kinda*, but chose to listen to his chimp. Friend: What happened? Me: I visited a brothel. Friend: Oh, are you feeling lonely, or sad? Me: No, I just felt.. like I need to feel the high. Like I craved for that feeling. Also, another part of me is literally telling me to do it, and for some reason, you didn't stop me. Friend: ...I'm sorry, I did try to reason with you. Like did I not say that there are certain rules that you can't cross, and this is one of them? Me: ...Yes, but imagine how good it feels to be able to fuck a woman. Friend: Well, how do you feel after visitng a brothel? Me: ...Regret, and empty. And fear that I will get addicted to this. Friend: Well, there is your answer. Me: But I can't trust myself that I will listen to reason, and not visit a brothel despite that. Friend: What do you need? Me: I need.. security, I need some diversity that invovles physical movement. I need attention, and I need a way to express myself without judgement. Friend: Ok.. I see what you need now. I can't really help you about security. THe internet says you need to build long term habit for internal security. Let go of control for external security, and embrace vulnerability to build genuine connection. I'm not sure how well are these advices, but you could try out for a week, and tell me how it works for you? Me: What kind of long term habits can I cultivate? Friend: Well.. maybe you could start with just sleeping early? Me: I've tried that, it doesn't work. I just don't have the motivation to do it. Friend: Well, where do you think your motivation to have sex and watch porn come from? If you are so passionate about that, maybe you could try to strive to sleep early everyday? Me: That's true.. but what about diversity that involves physical movement? Friend: Well.. you could try learning a new skill like playing badminton? Me: That's a good idea, but I had an idea to learn to play badminton, but I gave up on it because I feel like it will kill that part of me. Friend: What part of you? Me: That part of me who yearns sex and lust. Friend: Well, maybe you can try to control it? Me: I would feel so terrible if I don't give in.. Friend: Feeling is just temporary. You can't based on your feeling to do something, it will always lead to something destructive. Me: I know.. but it feels like I'm not being genuine.. Friend: As the saying goes, you need to kill a part of you, so a new one can reborn. Me: But I've thought of that too, and I still went to the brothel. Like what's the issue? Friend: Deep down, you still want to go to the brothel Me: Yes! Friend: I think.. deep down, you crave for dopamine spikes, and you just want to escape the inner tension. Me: I can tell that I crave for dopamine spikes, but inner tension? How do I solve that? Friend: Well.. self control? Me: How do I self control? Like, the temporary dopamine spike is more alluring that long term planning. Friend: You could read atomic habit? It mentions a lot about utilizing systems to steer you to a life that you want. Me: I tried that as well.. I tried building a system, but my deep desire just tries to break the system so I can satiate my desire.