I'm feeling so tempted right now

 I'm feeling tempted to watch a glimpse of porn. But I know that if I give in, it will spiral downwards. I also know that if I don't listen to it, the voice for the greater good is louder the next time. 

What should I do now? I think I should just sleep and don't think so much. I know porn is bad, after watching it, I will feel very bad, and I'm just wasting my potential for watching it. I am a person with a lot of potential. 

I don't know what am I feeling right now. Nothing I guess? Contentment? I don't know to be honest. I think I want to watch porn, but I know it's bad, so don't think about watching porn..

I really don't know what should I write, so I will probably end my journal here.


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